Saturday, July 30, 2016


I have found myself in this season of waiting ... and I'll be honest and say, I'm not really good at it! I've always thought of waiting as useless...a waste of time! Truthfully speaking, who likes to wait? I tend to grow impatient and anxiety can creep in. It's like a red light when I'm already late or a long line up when there is a thousand things on my "to-do" list! It can be frustrating to say the least and yet, this is where God has me right now! For a while, I just didn't understand why...and so I cried out, "what am I waiting for? and why? hasn't it been long enough?" I took my two year old temper tantrum ... shaking fists, stomping feet ... such a pretty sight for a grown woman, but it lead me to this ... 
"do you not trust Me when my answer is wait? my sweet child ... I have a plan and it is better than anything you could ever imagine! this is just a season ... WAIT!" ~GOD

 Sometimes I forget that childlike faith is completely different than acting like a child. 

We all have seasons we need to go through. A fallow field,  a winter wood ... valleys, deserts, pits ... regardless of what you use to define your wait, it tends to look barren, bleak, bare and yet this is where the greatest work takes place. I didn't understand the "fallow field" I was in because I saw it as unproductive ... but God is opening my eyes to see it from His perspective. 

Farmers have been known to leave a field plowed and harrowed but left unplanted for a period in order to restore its fertility. This season is necessary for growth, restoration and replenishment. It is important so the crop in the following seasons will be fruitful and abundant. It's like the winter wood ... the trees loose their leaves, not to die but to bring new growth in the spring. When I look at my "fallow field" from this perspective, I can see how God is using this season to grow, restore and replenish me so I will be ready for the season ahead. A season He has already prepared for me. He is not punishing me but rather preparing me. It is not wasted time ... but working time. Only He will know when I am truly ready to move on to the next season but until then I need to remember that this is not a time to be dormant or lazy, it is a time to mature in faith, pray, trust, face fears head on and to be patient in the process!
"wait is your call for me
patience is the virtue you long to see"
Often I find that I want to know His plan, so I can trust the plan ... however God hides the plan so I will KNOW and trust Him! I struggle still ... with the wait ... and especially with patience but that is another part of the growth in this season. The next season awaits ... and when I am ready, God will bring me to it! Until then ... I will pray, trust and wait!

A Wise Woman Builds Her Home

For I know the plans I have for you,” 
declares the Lord
“plans to prosper you and not to harm you, 
plans to give you hope and a future.
 Jeremiah 29:11

Sunday, May 15, 2016

Is There Anybody Out There?

Is there anybody out there?
wondering, wandering, waiting, wishing...

Is there anybody out there?
crying, caving, caring, calling out...

Is there anyone out there?
lacking, lonely, listening, loving...

Is there anyone out there? Is there?
It's been a long time since I've entered this space...almost 4 years...a lot has changed, I have changed! I am still "a simple princess", a child of God, a daughter of the King... but now, a single mom... 
A lot has taken place in this time away... and I'll be honest and say it's not been easy and sometimes downright difficult...this stretching and reshaping...this learning to do life differently! I have screamed out "is there anybody out there?" and when I stop and listen, I can hear that voice....the only voice that matters...

"I AM Here!"

When I was wondering and wandering...He was waiting and wishing!

When I was crying and caving...He was caring and calling out!

When I was lacking and lonely...He was listening and loving!

Is there anybody out there?
          "Yes my sweet child, I AM here....waiting with arms open, wishing you could trust My plan for your life, caring about you my daughter, calling out to draw you closer to Me, listening to your cries from a broken heart and loving you with a love like no other! You are my child, my daughter, my princess!"

Sunday, July 8, 2012

His eye is on the sparrow

It's been a while since I have been here in this space. As I have been taking some time to focus on things that are extremely important, I have not forgotten all of you! I thank each of you for your kind words of encouragement and love and for all of your prayers. It means the world to me that so many of you that I do not know in "real" life yet have become a real support in my life! Thank you!!

As I have taken time away, I have found that it is important to keep writing and with the encouragement of my sweet friend Barbie, I have found that in journaling. I have always been one to write things down...taking notes and put to paper what God has placed on my heart but Barbie has taken it one step further by added colour to her thoughts! She found that inspiration from a new blogger to me...and I love this expression of faith. 

These are the words that splashed the pages of my journal Saturday morning:
"It's a dark cloudy morning...looks like rain and yet the birds sing. They sing happily, joyfully...they sing their praises. They seem oblivious to the storm that is brewing. I want to sing like the birds and yet I feel more like the clouds...dark, heavy, ready to let loose the water that hides inside. Yet behind the clouds is the sun. It tries to push through and eventually it will. The sun will shine. The sun does shine. The Son does Shine."
 "I, the bright morning star" Revelation 22:6

After I wrote this, I went outside and watched the storm come in. Anyone who knows me well enough, knows I am not one for storms but I was intrigued by the birds. As the storm came in, I noticed the birds disappear...they took refuge, found a place of comfort and security...a place of protection and reprieve from the storm. As the sky grew darker and the earth shook with claps of thunder, the sky brightened by flashes of light, those birds were nowhere to be seen but as the storm moved on, before the rain had completely quit, those same birds came back out. They started singing again, right where they had left off. The enjoyed the light rain and the earth full of bounty! They were thankful for this shower...a shower of blessing!

Isn't it like that though? Isn't this exactly how we should be in life's storms...taking refuge...finding a place of comfort and security...a place of protection and reprieve? Isn't that exactly what He when the storm lightens, we can come out singing songs of praise for the storm...for the showers of blessing. Midst the storm it is sometimes hard to find that place of thankfulness, however it is in these times that we can find comfort  in Him and when we look back we can see it as a shower of blessing! He is the only one that can take a test and make it testimony! 

I watched the birds a while longer and as the storm turned about face and came back, the birds retreated again. They found their safe place...there shelter in the storm. They don't stay out in the storm alone and in the way of danger. Life is like is full of ups and downs, storms will come...but God is always there to offer that shelter...that safe place. He doesn't expect us to stand out in the midst of the storm, alone and unprotected...He offers shelter...a safe place.

I will admit, I have not always gone to Him in the midst of this storm. I have found myself on days struggling on my own with the rain pouring down on me, the earth shaking beneath me and lightning bolts that feel as if the are taking aim right at me...but the birds on this Saturday morning have reminded that I do not have to go it alone. I do not have to stand in the rain unprotected. I have a safe place...right in His arms!

He protects each of those birds and He will protect me!

"Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father's care. And even the very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows." Matthew 10:29-31

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ps. i am not sure at this point how often i will for now "Finding Peace in Psalm 23" is still on hold. thank you again for your continued prayers!

Saturday, June 16, 2012

taking some time

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I am not really sure how long I will be gone. I need some focus, to think, to re-evaluate, to realign priorities, to pray and to heal. My family needs me, my marriage needs me, my husband needs me...and I need all of them! The last 4 parts of Psalm 23 will be on hold until my return. I hope you will all come back and finish up the series with me then. Thank you for all of your prayers! Be back as soon as I can!

Friday, June 15, 2012


"So, here’s the skinny: every Friday for over a year hundreds of people join a kind of writing flash mob...For five minutes flat. No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. Unscripted. Unedited. Real. All on the same prompt...Write and see what comes out. There’s no right or wrong." ~Gypsy Mama
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sometimes the path is not well lit

sometimes it seems dark, lonely and even frightening

sometimes you can't see the end

the distance is unknown

the obstacles unsure

how long, how deep, how  much farther? much pain... much sadness...

unanswered questions, unresolved feelings

thoughts overwhelm

time drags on

tears do words

it's a path that must be taken

a path that will lead to healing

a path that is hard

but a path that will strengthen

...i am not alone...

this path can't be taken alone

He is with me...guiding me...leading me

His light

in His path

in His healing

clinging to that truth

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